Today we will begin a new weekly feature: Devotions for Dancers by Lace's own Michelle Smith. Michelle is a volunteer in the Midland/Odessa area and was in the industry for ten years. Thank you Michelle!
Please let me introduce myself…….
My name is Michelle, but most only knew me by Skyler.
I was 19 years old, trying to find out who I wanted to be when I grew up. I was introduced to the exotic entertainment industry and I was instantly hooked, much like a drug addiction. Michelle quickly began to fade into the background and Skyler began to take over. It didn’t take long for the lights and glamour to begin to consume me. The addiction of the money, the addiction of the attention and the addiction of the drugs began to drive me. After the first couple of years, I didn’t even resemble the woman named Michelle anymore. I talked different, I walked different, I smelled different….. I was different. I would cringe as I walked through a crowd and someone yelled “Michelle” because I knew that person didn’t know me anymore. I didn’t know me anymore. Michelle was GONE!
After 10 years dancing in every club in the Texas panhandle and 13 years of a drug addiction, one trip to prison and losing my children to CPS. I surrendered. I couldn’t go on living this life any longer. I cried out to God and He heard me.
He heard Michelle!! He knew me, He created me in my mother’s womb.
“I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the LORD and put their trust in him.”
Allow me to re-introduce myself……..
My name is Michelle. I am married with 3 amazing children 21, 17, & 15. I have been in recovery for 11 years. Today, I am a Licensed Chemical Dependency Counselor Intern and have heart to serve women. I have been given another chance at life…………….
1 Timothy 1:12-16
“I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength, that he considered me trustworthy, appointing me to his service. Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent (wo)man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.
Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.”